hads one of those days where i was like, "if i knew i had to get hit by a car in my lifetime but i could pick when, it would be today". just back to back to back mistakes and failures like i wish i could've just gone to sleep at 8 but i had to go to practice which wouldve been ideal time to get hit. no close calls though

i'm still considering what to do about the loan situation for grad school. im approved for more than i "need" because it adds some for housing, transport, etc but i have that covered so long as i'm able to work weekends. and i'm looking into evening hours at a different place, so i should be fine for the first year. but the idea of not having to work also sounds good.... plus money for housing means i might have more to spend on other stuff. kei car mayhaps... but thats getting ahead of myself. if i understood correctly i only need like 5 of the 10k i was offered for fall. a little less but rounding up for the sake of it. but people are like, you're gonne be overdoing it. you won't have time to yourself. do i even need that though? free time for what? not like i need to spend time with anyone. it'll get me out of helping my parents weekly. i'll see the friends i need to see as it occurs. 16 hours of school and 16 hours of unpaid internship plus whatever i work, say another 16. thats 48. i used to work like 60 something when i was juggling two jobs. idk i'm sleepy again now