preordering a book by an author i found early into college who is finally getting a book published and i think that's cool and i'm glad i will be able to read it and maybe i should've emailed them way back when to read previous drafts but i don't like to reach out ! i've gatekept them from anyone who's asked me who i like reading because sometimes it feels parasocial, since they're not 'big', but mostly to keep something to myself in a world where everything is increasinly shared. but i guess it will end up on my storygraph at some point this year so the gatekeeping will end this year, but i doubt anyone will actually notice