would love to be able to post more postive stuff, especially considering how yesterday was a pretty good day overall, but was hit with distressing news today and have been in a spiral of sorts since. have mostly overcome a lot of the negative emotions, majority were immediate and intense so walking around and eating something helped, but there's still lingering sentiments of inadequacy, incompetnece, and general 'what is the point in all this?' that i'm navigating through. i have hope that it can be sorted out, but when so much of my life has changed because of this and it kinda potentially unravelling so fast, makes me feel like it was all a mistake. But, i won't dwell on that for now. gonna go to a dinner thing. then idk. talked to three people about it to varying degrees. thinking of that jung quote about how loneliness is not because there's no one there, but because you can't express the things you feel are important. so im being mindful about not retreating from feelings of wanting to talk to people. even if i know they can't offer a solution, i'm still practicing communication